LOOK back with longing eyes and know that I will follow,
Lift me up in your love as a light wind lifts a swallow,
Let our flight be far in sun or windy rain--
But what if I heard my first love calling me again?
Hold me on your heart as the brave sea holds the foam,
Take me far away to the hills that hide your home;
Peace shall thatch the roof and love shall latch the door--
But what if I heard my first love calling me once more?
What shall the person do if his 1st love kept call??
What is a first love??
Is it caring about someone??
Or loving how he is and how he act??
Or none of these
Can it be from one side??
Or from both sides at different time??
Or from both side at the same time??
Or feeling strongly the warmth and caring
Even if he is not the best ..well mannered or well dressed
All of that at that moment doesn't matter
U only saw the soul
I don't know
I can't find an answer
Sometimes u meet certain person who
make u feel angry
And you become full of anger and dislike
And u act like this
And never figure that he care
Till u discover u were blind
and u understand it all
Start to escape from what u always run away off
U break every single step u could share
U make it die before it born
Then time goes by
Fate separates people by distance
But one day
U suddenly wake
Full of strange feeling and missing
Some thing born in
after everything end and gone?!!
This happened with people we cared for
Even close friends when we start to put walls
And then real walls put itself by time
And life threw everyone on a new way and u start saying
I really did...
"This was written long time ago"
Seeing Blue last post
make me remember that Tv series
And when i start look in my mail
for what i saved about it and about the auther
For sorrow i found i either lost it or i don't remember
where and by what name i saved it
Instead i found that mail and those questions
I sent to a very dear Friend on the radio
Long time ago
He was talking about first love
And his thoughs makes me think
At that time i though i may have some feelings
for someone who used to have some feeling for me
while i didn't even notice
and was disliking him
After taking different roads
I remembered him with a flash back
Suddenly i found that missing feeling
I didn't know what to call
So i wrote these words and sent it to Osama
And totally forgut about the whole thing
Thanks to Blue i found it this morning
And i couldn't prevent a BIG smile
After having a fist real love
And losing it because of circumstances
against our well
And after getting over it
I know what is a real First Love mean
It is not calling back
But it have that taste that make you remembering it with a worm childish smile
It have a different taste
that will kept
even with any true love
Sorry for make it long
But i had to get it out
Even for myself ".