Soul to Soul

Did that personality test a Hetchkok blog
i love tests some how it tell me more about me
and z truth i may be blinded and don't see them

So confused
There is a time you know that you've to grow up
You have to face yourself
You have to make a choice
And follow a whole way alone to get there
And discover new you and other things
Face it
Either to open the door you are hiding beside and walk
Or totally close it and accept this

like him i feel
i deeply need to recharge
and in the same time too tired
suddenly i become so low
i don't want to stand up and start

kept looking for a new job
left the old one by a personal decision
5 months ago

was so depressed getting over a heart break
and couldn't force myself any more to do something
i don't like or respect
i was about to turn to a governmental employee

all i wanted to leave all this

After i stayed at home
and start getting over things
emptiness was driving me to become nuts
in z same time grandma sudden illness
leave me with no choices

Now i got a new job waiting
and I'm away from being happy
though i was saying i need it badly
need to back to track again
but i feel i can't

Become too lazy and too scared

Meeting people talking
start studying again for the new field
start waking up early and walk in z crowded streets
all of these makes me feel tired and scared

Felt like those months were life time
a whole age changed me more and more
become a real loner
more nervous
silent

too tired to stand up

Check this video

I found it while i was searching for the song
Funny :)
The song from "The First Wives Club" movie
By Bette Midler, Goldie Hawn, Diane Keaton
I saw it few days ago
and enjoy it